And ironically enough, I get a coupon this morning from Chili's for free chips and queso. Um, thanks guys, but not gonna happen for a while. I'm going through a lot of feelings right now, excitement to be done with this diet so I can go back to a semblance of a normal life and dread that unfortunately, things won't ever be the same as before. I hate that I can't go grab a bite and a few drinks with friends right now. I probably cooould, but I really couldn't. I'm not trusting my self discipline yet and alcohol is just out of the question for the time being. I don't need those empty calories putting off another day. I know I'll be able to eat the same things I did before, however no where near as often as I did. And with a bit of physical exercise too. And for those of you who don't know me well, I don't like change. It's going to be hard. Very hard. But I think once I've lost like 50 pounds it'll be way easier to make myself keep it off. Sure, I'll be able to justify pigging out sometimes because I'll be nice and skinny, but gaining 5 pounds is likely to scare the shit out of me. I've been heavy for a while now, and over my dead body will I ever come back to it.
So back to the subject for today- diet plateaus. Yeah, I know they are normal and they pop their ugly face up every once in a while. But they suck. This phentermine drug is supposed to make you not hungry and due to the research I did beforehand, it's not unusual and actually kind of normal to lose something every day or every other day, even if it's just half a pound. I've weighed about the same since Saturday, up until this morning, I'm down about another half a pound. Which again, is normal for dieting and is probably a good thing, but it is discouraging. It makes me want to break down and cry and have a bacon cheeseburger and a vanilla shake to drown my sorrows. Because on top of it all, I've been eating WAY less the last few days. My bestie Leslie was in town and we were busy and I just forgot to eat some days, and my body didn't complain. You'd think the pounds would have fallen off. But I guess not, so today, I'm eating a bit more and going to do some crunches/push-ups/leg lifts and what not later to kick up the exercise. Moral of the story- eating less doesn't necessarily mean you're losing more, it turns out.
I'm learning an awful lot about my body right now, too. When I first saw my doctor for this, she measured my waist at 38 inches. If I am measuring it in the same spot she did, which I believe I am now 34 inches. But I'm wearing 31 inch waist jeans, and they are pretty big, I need a belt with them, so I could really not even be doing it right. Eh, I dunno. But the point is, I'm losing weight and I can see it! And it seems like my body takes weight from my waist first, which is fabulous. I had a waistline before, but now it's getting much more defined and I feel feminine again!
For those of you who worry that I'm simply relying on phentermine to lose the weight, that's so not true. It's taken me a bit, but I've "perfected" my diet routine and found what works for me. Here's pretty much what my diet looks like (Some old news, some new. Bear with me):
- I wake up and eat breakfast (or lunch, if I've slept in, like today). Breakfast is usually a bowl of cereal or weight control oatmeal, a small glass of milk and grapes or yogurt. Or if it's lunch, about 8 oz. of a low sodium, healthy soup and a side dish and water.
- I've quit sodas and alcohol while I'm dieting, which I've mentioned before, but I'm sticking with it. I've started treating myself every once in a while with a packet of crystal light, but not very often. I know it's not that bad for you but my mom drank it religiously and had problems with it so I've learned from her experience that it's better in moderation.
- Anyone who's been on a diet knows that it's not uncommon to have... "regularity" issues. So I'm making sure I get a full days serving of Benefiber, which has helped. Eating fewer simple carbs has certainly affected my fiber intake, so this has really helped a lot.
- I've been keeping a diet journal. I record the date, what I eat, what kind of physical exercise I did, what time I took my pill and how much I weighed, if there was a significant change since my last weigh in. I don't really review it all that often so that part doesn't really help, but it does help with accountability. I've become ritualistic about recording what goes in my body and if I don't do it, it bothers the hell out of me. Who knew my anal/retentive side would pay off one day?? Since I know I've gotta write it down, I've gotta eat well. I want to feel good about what I'm writing down.
- I'm taking Women's One A Day Active Metabolism. Is it helping? I haven't a clue. But it certainly can't hurt. Multi-vitamins are goooood. If they had a weight loss for women one in those new gummy ones, I'd use them. I've yet to look but they probably don't. Oh well.
- I'm also using Jergens Skin Firming lotion every day on problem areas, like my stomach/sides, upper arms and thighs. It says it reduces cellulite, but also improves elasticity. My skin has been pretty stretched out for a while and I want it to snap back as easily as possible, because this particular diet has me losing pretty fast and I don't want my skin to look like poo as a result. Again, is it working? I feel like it is but it's pretty hard to tell. I'm not obese, just overweight, so my skin might have snapped back well on it's own but I'm not leaving anything to chance.
- I'm avoiding simple carbs and sticking with the complex ones. I'm also eliminating sodium and sucrose (sugar... the bad kind. Fructose is sugar from fruit and glucose is sugar that our body creates.) I'm sticking with a sodium free salt substitute and Splenda. They are helping beautifully.
No comments:
Post a Comment